owkay.. this day totally sucks. toni texted me saying that southborder's gig in dish is cancelled on june 12 and transferred to today. shit talaga. if only i had someone to go with.. but it's too late. the past 4 days really sucked because i couldnt take the thought of duncan having a girlfriend out of my mind. how the hell can i stop thinking about him? i've totally gone crazy over him... and i mean TOTALLY crazy. everytime i'd see southborder videos on tv i'd go gaga screaming all over the place and yeah.. drooling over him. for some fucking reason. maybe its the bonnet. well damn it. if ever i'm still gonna see him again it's still gonna be next month. july. that totally sucks. i wanna get him out of my mind as soon as possible. thinking about him is plain useless. it is so impossible. this dream? yeah.. it is extremely impossible.

well.. yesterday, i went out with toni and roxy.ü it went pretty well. we went to ac to get toni's recommendation papers since she's gonna be transferring to st. scho! oh no.. she might get the lesbo fever.. st. scho has loads of those kinda people. and worse, they make love to each other. gross. anyway, there. we thought we'd see sir nino but uh man no. he's some really cute teacher.. but then he's got a fiancee that's s student. shit. [see how unfair the world really is??] so we left to go to glorietta since roxy wanted to use the internet.. hah. she finally has a friendster account. finally. she is so late na. toni and i were so hungry that we had to wait forever in wendy's since the line was just so long.. just to get our small burgers. wait, we suddenly thought of joining the "barkada myx vj for a day" thing and we took pictures of ourselves in the fitting rooms of U while fitting weird stuff. i ended up looking like the dork in the barkada. toni was the preppy cheerleader and roxy was the rocker.  argh.. then we went to gb3 and went around for awhile. and oh yeah, we checked out the CUTE barista in seattles who turned out to be the boyfriend of toni's gay tito. sucky right? sayang. he's hot pa naman. then we had to get home to watch the last STAR CIRCLE QUEST since it was the very very last one before eliminations. no.. announcing of the winner.ü the real thing. after the show, we went back to gb3 to hang for awhile and go around. roxy took forever in music one swear to god. i think toni and i made fun of millions of people already by the time rox finished.. and wow. she didnt even buy a thing. she could spend forever in a music store just listening to her cds... rock if that's what you call it. noise. yep. then we ate salpicao in foodcourt. yummy and cheap too!!! hahaü after like 5 minutes, toni had to leave. so it left me and roxy spying for hot guys. and yessh! we found alot. as in ALOT. we saw this really hot bald rocker-ish guy... hahahü with the goatie. hot stuff!!! hahahahahü then after walking around, we sat down and had our session. just so you know, not drugs but...?ü i had a drink of baileys shake which cost me 190 for a small glass. damn it. hahahü then we walked around for about and hour and decided to just hang in the movie place. got home at around 12.

here's really bad news.. my brother bought a 6600 just last last week... and guess what? he lost the phone. hah. we stayed up till like 2am just calling and calling tha phone. someone answered it but he always put it down. its gone. officially. 23 thousand down the drain in 2 weeks for nothing.

last night, was my last friday before school starts.. wasnt much fun but not too bad. but still, i deserved a better night..:) friday's the only FUN day. everyone's out partying. and there i was with roxy in gb3 walking around in the rain and boy hunting. what a way to spend my last friday of summer. how i wish summer would be longer.. like have it start the same day as everyone else's. why so early?? i dont even have school stuff yet. it's just so damn sad..:C no duncan. no more southborder this month. no more summer vacation. no more staying up till 3am. no more late night chatting. yes to school. yes to classmates. and damn. im gonna miss summer.ü just hope duncan gets out of my mind really soon coz till now, my mind's full of him. literally.

¤¤ damn. just think positively. nothing's impossible. keep on dreaming...ü¤¤

damn... the worst feeling on earth is when you find out your crush has someone else. im so pissed. really. i was just in galle the other day when my aimee [mah classmate] texted me that she saw duncan soo sweet with a fat, ugly girl. that totally sucks. fyi. patay na patay ako kay duncan..üü i was so pissed that it left me so quiet the entire time. i didnt even get to watch harry poTTer since i was busy thinking about it. i know i know, it's nearly impossible since he's all old and stuff but still... the feeling is bad. real bad. but he is still #1 on my top 10 list. (right turnot?) you dont know how bad i felt.

but wait, actually... that paulo navarrah from akafellas is cute too.üü the fact that he kept smiling at us in dish makes me soo happy. hahahü he looks a lil gay but he knows how to bring himself. lakas ng dating nya i swear. with his porma and all. and he's thu one who sings harana!!! that makes him extremely hot.ü "hot stuff!!!" hmm.. also dj myke. thu beatBoxer of akafellas. he's cute. one more thing, he won first runner up in the mossimo bikini summit. obviously, he is macho. buff.ü cOOLness. but he's got an extremely pretty girlfriend named geralyn. fyi. she's the sister of michelle in star circle quest.ü really pretty gurl. [damn.]